Is it bad to resort to numerical examples to understand the idea behind a proof?
That's perfectly normal. I do the same thing, and I've heard it strictly encouraged to solidify your understanding with examples. Like, you can bet the author looked at tons of examples before they even came up with the correct statement of the theorem they're proving. :)
I would say that, not only is it normal, it is recommended and also something that some people have to be taught to do. John Conway said that he worked out numerous examples with physical tokens when he was inventing his game of Life, and I got the sense he thought that kind of concreteness was important in other more conventional mathematical contexts too.